Holiday Season

The holidays usually begin with the Durga Puja and end with the Christmas and New year celebration. This is time that I fear the most, yes sometimes being blessed with friends mean endless dinner/lunch invite. And with those invitation comes the worst season for migraine. Now you may suggest that oh why don't you try and let your friends understand your problem, atleast I should try with those with whom we hang around once every other week. Well trust me I tried...tried for years and still have to be part of awkward conversations like
F: You will never able to consume dairy?
Me: ummm you know I am allergic to it, so unless science advances, there is pretty much nothing I can do.
F: You do have so much time to do all other things, since you don't eat anything.
Me: I am sure WHO would love to know my secret and implement in third world countries. Surviving without eating anything! Well sweety if home cooking all the time means no cooking then yes I have all the time in the world!

Sometimes I feel blessed are these people who don't even know the concept of "allergy" But then I always end of reminiscing how would life be if there were not so many obstacles with food? Would I be like my friends, pretty insensitive about other peoples issues?

And going to these party I feel like there are all these pretty lovely things laid out and I can't eat anything. Now you might suggest why go to the party expecting any food, eat your own and wola you are done. No they will keep on pressuring you to eat their food, as if they know better than all those doctors, and they think all my problems lies in not eating enough! They will even suggest that I should go and see a therapist, because apparently there is something wrong with my brain! 

The battle

How many times have you felt on cloud nine and then came that trigger whiffing in the air and boom, the next 24-48 hour is a hell hole. My life had become so miserable in last 6 months that nothing seemed to be right. Nothing brought happiness, neither the beautiful first house nor those Canadian Rocky trip.  Finally one thing led to other and I took rescue in a naturalist doctor. She is quite amazing and may be after a long time I found someone who understands that this is not a whim of my imagination and neither am I alien creature to suffer from migraine (trust me the country where I come from, allergy is like a fit of imagination)

This weekend a very dear friend of mine gave birth to a healthy baby boy and my first instinct was to go and see the baby. K and I picked his sister and brother-in-law, who have recently moved to this part of the world. The sis is a doctor and is well aware of my situation. She has seen and we have talked in length about my triggers and causes. But like previous occasions our BIL decided that a smaller portion of perfume is okay for me. The moment he stepped in the car, my brain started boozing and I was like "Jeezzz stop worrying everything will be all right, its just a 5 minute car ride and you will be okay" I have tried so many times to trick my brain, tell him (I like to think my brain as some alfa male!) its nothing, you are not sensitive to it, you will be great. But I think lately "he" has come to "senses" about my tricks. And then the haze build up, the throbbing, the pulsating....

After 48 hours, my question is why are you insensitive about others? Why do I have to go through so many pain cycles before you believe its real? Why do I still have such family/friends in my life? 

Yes I have Migraine

For years I had a sense about my migraine, but lately things have turned real grave. I feel the best step towards recovery is accepting that I do have a problem of migraine and no matter how healthy I eat sometimes even a small amount of stress or sunlight can trigger it. So here I go - Ladies and Gentleman yes I have a migraine and its a struggle everyday. And this blog is mainly about those physical, mental and social struggle.